ASSYADIKA JALIL

When I dream
I dream out my fears
Hoping that reality is near
So I can lure it to my lair
Then feed on my needs as need be

So when I dream
I dream about fighting the freezing cold with fire
I dream about aiming higher to grasp my desires
I dream of ways to inspire myself
By sweetly toiling out till I tire
Many a dream of mine are unwritten songs
To which I've known the words all along
Often I dream of places where I should belong

When I dream
I dream about the impossible
And how to enable it
Without the obvious obstacles
It’s only then I realize that a dream is capable
Of becoming true for either me or you
Yet the reality of it all is
Then a dream is no longer a dream!

JURAIMI JUMAT

Person with big heart and forgiving nature. he needs to check his temper tho. loving and compassionate at his best. someone you can rely on and have your back.

Tonight's a Sat night, and well.. Ive stayed home tonite. Doing nothynk, mainly.. and most of the time munching. Im at the point im effynk frust with myself. Walk the talk ok?

whoah, for a moment, i sounded like i hate myself. lol. yawn. just a lil quick update on my life status:

life - #1 gaining weight hard AND fast. everythynk is piling on my cheeks and tummy. =S eeks. #2 lost my beloved hp. #3 im left with about $*00 to last for the rest of the month. hope can make it last. #4 enrolled on bike, but hadter cut it short, UNFORTUNATELY. sacrifices?

work - cracking my head to solve this one lil mini project system. other than that, things have been pretty peaceful, ever since I lost my phone. heh, shouldve thot of just changing num duing tt "drama" period. silly me. moving onnn!

personal life - our differences are getting too vast. i guesss... jessie's nobody's perfect might say bout it all.

Im betting i'll blog in 5 minutes time agaen. itz 4am, i cant slp. cant think of doing nethynk else. we'll see.

todae, i saaaad... *whiny mode*
Things DID NOT go well in skool and i am fearful for MY LIFE if i repeat... I am scared shitless. Why oh why... Just pls ah... Let me graduate in peace n joy.. Please.

Luvly came to fetch moi and away from worry world. Hehe.. Had a lil snack n chat bwh blk and then he's off for night shift. And here i am, heavy eyed and all.. But interesting story coming up!

Yest izz zaidan screamed his bloodhurling scream that made everyone freeze. Confirm he saw sumthynk kan? Then my mum sprint into action and picked him up and he terwee on my mum. So after a while, mummie go mandi after he da all settled and his cries are soothed. Then mummy came out of the toilet a while later, and screamed too! Guess who or wad she saw????

Itz was a lil boy.. Height about, an average pri 3 student.. All bald. Staring straight at her. My mum say all her blood turned cold. But when she screamed and turned agaen, the thing was gone. He was wearing like a light brown2 kinda thing... Like buddha wear.... Scarie or wad..... And i thnk tt was wad izz zaidan saw too. My mum kater since tt time kite baru balek jalan2, so prolly tt thng followed hme.

Scarie ahhhhh!!! How to suro dier kluar then??? Action smer ajak kluar jalan2 lagik?? Hahahahaha... But yeah, tt was scaries.

Speak and ur thoughts would be heard.
Pray and ur wish would be granted.
Love and ur heart will be contented.
Forgive and ur soul will be enlightened.

those words just flow out from this mind of mine, u thnk itz true? But dear heart... Why so much turmoil? So much... Hesitations? Is he not enough for u? is he not able to make u happy?

thing is, he does.. so make sure u love him and embrace him with tt love before he takes his leave. And stop, with the prangai.

p.r.a.n.g.a.i

Gosh, wad a detested word..

''u can say that uld rather slp than entertain this prangai..but baby. Please dun play with this heart of mine.. Lalala...''

Hahaha... But kan, sweet ah darling tdk. He majok, then we wanna go play pool, but tmpt tk best so ended up eating at coffee bean je, but afterwards, he talked nice afterwards..

Hm..

But aneways, im just thankful i got to spend time with him, say just a while tho. If things were my in my perfect world, uld be my perfect guy and i'ld be ur perfect grl. =) ild have bouncy ponytail and long legs and uld be just as u are now. we would sit late at night, coffee and hot chocolate(urs, haha) between us, and we'ld talk the whole night away. We'ld laugh so hard uld carry me (like u did a while ago by the roadside) and ild drool on ur shoulder from too hard a laughter. And uld drop me from too much laughter and we'll lie side by side, happily and contented.

Kekee, that was a night to rmbr, altho a different version. But, memories dun lie. =)


I love u sweet munchieekynnz.